While I love my job and my paychecks, I hate my hours. The number one reason I hate working night shift:
3-4 whole nights a week that I don't get to spend with this amazing man that I get to call my husband
He is, without a doubt, my favorite person. I love spending time with him and long for quiet nights on the couch watching tv, cooking dinner, or taking walks through our neighborhood with him. I suppose my schedule does force us to truly appreciate the 4 nights a week we do get to spend together. But it's still hard to leave for work knowing I could spend the evening with him. As Summer begins, I find it even harder to leave when I know there are so many fun things we could be doing together.
My coworkers have asked me why I don't like night shift. I always have the same answer, "I miss my husband." They laugh and usually respond with, "Oh, well you're a newlywed, that feeling will soon pass." It makes me sad every time I hear someone say that or mention how they look forward to spending half of their nights away from their husbands. I'm not naive, I know as the years go by people typical want time away from their spouses and don't miss them as much. But could it be possible to never have what we feel now, that "newlywed feeling" disappear? I hope so. I may hate spending nights away from my husband, but I love even more that I have someone that I love so much that I miss him when I'm not with him and long to be with him whenever I can. 8 months in and my feelings for my husband are as strong as ever. I hope and pray to feel the same way 10 years, even 50 years from now. Who says we can't stay in the "newlywed" phase forever?